Hello hello and welcome to my little niche in this world. I have been feeling a bit emotional lately. With the new school year starting and both of my kiddos in high school I can’t help but feel just a tad bit reflective and excited at the same time.
Back in May an honorary grandmother passed away. Grandma Jeanette was such a sweet lady, she really made you feel special and like you were just the best at what you did. While I was sad that she was gone I know that she has touched many a hearts and will live on in our memories.
The loss of a loved one can be life changing. Back in 2009 we lost our beloved Grandma Rose, she was more of a spiritual leader for me. Her passing left a huge gap in our family that has really never closed. It was after her passing that I really began to question my actions, was I spending enough time with my family? Did I show them how much I appreciate and love them? At the time I was attending college and working a full time stressful position. The loss of Grandma hit me like a ton of bricks. I can honestly say that I am forever changed. Slowly I began to see that I wasn’t happy, work was a huge stressor. I thoroughly enjoyed working with the kiddos but I wasn’t happy within my work environment. I was short and abrupt with my family as I was preparing for my college graduation and I constantly felt a sense of anxiety. It was affecting me physically, the lack of sleep and exhaustion left me feeling drained. I decided to just “Up and quit” my job as folks would say. It was not an easy decision. However I am so glad that I had the courage to know when enough was enough.
With all of that being said when Grandma Jeanette passed away my heart hurt. I knew that words could not really express how I was feeling as at times I struggle with getting the right words out at the right time.
In thinking of Barbara and the loss of her mom I stumbled across this pattern.
A Neon bright light went on! Wouldn’t it be neat to crochet a prayer shawl for her? Somehow I could let her know just how loved she is as well as her mother and maybe just maybe this small gesture could help her.
I had never crochet a Prayer Shawl but after researching, I was confident that I could do it. I had the pattern printed and the perfect shade of purple yarn selected. The stitches and pattern worked up quickly. Creating more specifically crocheting is like therapy for my soul. I find that is soothes, enlightens but most importantly humbles me.
Yesterday Barb picked up her shawl, I am happy to say that she loved it!
If you would like to make this shawl, here is an awesome tutorial.
Until next time, I hope that your days are bright and filled with warmth.